I realized about a year ago my tendency to be chasing this “feel good” notion in life.
Every day was about feeling “good” and it became the center of everything else. My attempting to control how I felt all the time for most of my life had led me to put numerous things in my body – energy drinks, candy, over-the-counter meds, and eventually meds I bought on the street…
My inability to accept life on life’s terms was taking me down, literally. That’s when I realized I had to get out of Seattle.
I had to get out, remove myself from the situation, give myself some space, and reassess. So, I chose Costa Rica. What an amazing decision that was.
I’ve recently realized that we simply can’t feel great everyday. That’s a wonderful idea, but it’s not realistic. Because life is life. Some days are great and others we feel like shit and I’m here to tell you it’s okay. We are human beings. We feel a lot of things. This full spectrum of emotions is not all “feel good” ones. Some are tough.
But we have to learn how to deal. When we can learn from our feelings… then we are in a “good” place.
I learned to practice compassion with myself considering that this need to feel good all the time was a learned behavior – something I had to unlearn for myself. I had to go to somewhat of a drastic measure, but it worked for me.
We live in a world that teaches us to suppress our emotions. To not express how we feel. To numb. To take a pill to make things better. It’s not our fault. But it is our responsibility to become aware of all of this. If we want true happiness we have to stand in our power and be willing to not only understand our conditioning, but make a change on our own.
So, next time you find yourself looking for something outside yourself to feel “better,” remember that it’s okay to feel “not good” or “shitty” or “sad” sometimes. The show goes on. Embrace all of your feelings. Instead of trying to recreate that incredible day you had yesterday, allow today to be a new day.
Accept life, on life’s terms, just for today. Because today is all you have to deal with. Today is all you have. If you need some extra rest, take it. If you don’t feel well and you have to work, just do your best and rest when you get home.
Acceptance in its purest form is choosing the present moment, with all of its vulnerability. THAT is saying YES to life.