When was the last time you took a good hard look at the thoughts you are thinking and beliefs you have (aka the stories you tell yourself about yourself and your life)?
The thing is, we don’t even realize we’re doing it half the time… stuck in negative thinking that just perpetuates those exact thoughts to manifest into our reality.
We really do get to create our lives, but how? It starts with our thoughts. We must have awareness of our thoughts and if they do not serve our highest good, we have to change them.
I recently had a powerful, heart opening session with my life coach, Alma Lara, and found myself in tears during our conversation, pouring my heart out to her about how I’ve gained a few pounds and have been totally overindulging in food and drinks lately, and how frustrated and angry at myself I feel about it. She gave me this powerful task to complete, and I feel more empowered than I have in a very long time.
So, here goes… I’d like to share with you my latest journal entry:
The main story I’ve been telling myself lately is that I’m fat and am becoming slowly addicted to sugar again. That gaining a bit of weight is “bad” (I’ve always viewed it this way) and that consequently I’m doing something wrong (shame and guilt). This story is not serving me and these thoughts are actually causing these things to manifest in my life (sugar addiction and weight gain).
So, it’s time to rewrite my story.
Today and going forward, this is my new story:
I love myself, and therefore I have compassion for myself to realize these are actually my lifelong struggles, not just recent, that have resurfaced since returning from Peru and parting ways with one of the deepest soulmate-loves I have ever had.
I realize now that he was helping fan the flames of my fire… he was the air from above (heart chakra) and the passion and desire from below (sacral chakra) that was keeping my third chakra fire burning bright. I had this effortless get-up-and-go energy for so long, my metabolism was off the charts, my body was lean and strong and I felt like I could literally conquer the world. What a magnificent feeling, being in love… I was motivated everyday, inspired, excited, creating things passionately with this beautiful human. Fuck, who doesn’t like being in that energy?!
It is easy to experience a “loss” of love when a person suddenly goes away.
It takes courage to realize we are love, we can never truly lose it… because we always have ourselves.
Now I must learn to keep my own fire going.
I want to learn to keep my fire going.
I AM learning to keep my fire going… not just going, burning passionately with the action of my will to manifest my deepest desires in this life.
I practice self-compassion with this every single day because I know this is a process of me truly learning this for the very first time.
I embrace and love my body no matter what shape it takes going forward because I nourish it with healthy, wholesome foods, yoga and exercise, and if I’m a bit more curvy, it’s ok. I feel sexy in my curves because I am a beautiful woman whose light radiates from the inside out.
I promise to be gentle on myself going forward, open-minded and willing to experience whatever the Universe provides for me as a container to continue to raise my awareness.
I am beautiful. I am in my power. And my heart is open to give and receive LOVE.
Thank You, Universe.
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