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Rewrite your story and change your life

When was the last time you took a good hard look at the thoughts you are thinking and beliefs you have (aka the stories you tell yourself about yourself and your life)?

The thing is, we don’t even realize we’re doing it half the time… stuck in negative thinking that just perpetuates those exact thoughts to manifest into our reality.

We really do get to create our lives, but how? It starts with our thoughts. We must have awareness of our thoughts and if they do not serve our highest good, we have to change them.

I recently had a powerful, heart opening session with my life coach, Alma Lara, and found myself in tears during our conversation, pouring my heart out to her about how I’ve gained a few pounds and have been totally overindulging in food and drinks lately, and how frustrated and angry at myself I feel about it. She gave me this powerful task to complete, and I feel more empowered than I have in a very long time.

So, here goes… I’d like to share with you my latest journal entry:

The main story I’ve been telling myself lately is that I’m fat and am becoming slowly addicted to sugar again. That gaining a bit of weight is “bad” (I’ve always viewed it this way) and that consequently I’m doing something wrong (shame and guilt). This story is not serving me and these thoughts are actually causing these things to manifest in my life (sugar addiction and weight gain).

So, it’s time to rewrite my story.

Today and going forward, this is my new story:

I love myself, and therefore I have compassion for myself to realize these are actually my lifelong struggles, not just recent, that have resurfaced since returning from Peru and parting ways with one of the deepest soulmate-loves I have ever had.

I realize now that he was helping fan the flames of my fire… he was the air from above (heart chakra) and the passion and desire from below (sacral chakra) that was keeping my third chakra fire burning bright. I had this effortless get-up-and-go energy for so long, my metabolism was off the charts, my body was lean and strong and I felt like I could literally conquer the world. What a magnificent feeling, being in love… I was motivated everyday, inspired, excited, creating things passionately with this beautiful human. Fuck, who doesn’t like being in that energy?!

It is easy to experience a “loss” of love when a person suddenly goes away.

It takes courage to realize we are love, we can never truly lose it… because we always have ourselves.

Now I must learn to keep my own fire going.

I want to learn to keep my fire going.

I AM learning to keep my fire going… not just going, burning passionately with the action of my will to manifest my deepest desires in this life.

I practice self-compassion with this every single day because I know this is a process of me truly learning this for the very first time.

I embrace and love my body no matter what shape it takes going forward because I nourish it with healthy, wholesome foods, yoga and exercise, and if I’m a bit more curvy, it’s ok. I feel sexy in my curves because I am a beautiful woman whose light radiates from the inside out.

I promise to be gentle on myself going forward, open-minded and willing to experience whatever the Universe provides for me as a container to continue to raise my awareness.

I am beautiful. I am in my power. And my heart is open to give and receive LOVE.

Thank You, Universe.

xo,

Loren

Want to rewrite your story? Come to my next workshop, Empower Yourself! – more info and signup here.

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Lifestyle, Love, Travel

Living Completely Out of Control

Nothing will throw you out of your normal routine like travel.

It will throw you off, make you question life, give you courage to change, and make you appreciate things you were taking for granted.

Integrating my Peru experience is definitely going to be a process. I’ve only been back one week and have noticed a whole new set of challenges arise. With a new perspective on virtually everything I see, how do I make sense of it all?

I’ve noticed some struggles come back around my relationship with food that I never thought I would see again. Comfort foods have been my favorite thing lately and I can see them on my body in the form of a few extra pounds… especially on my belly, which I used to absolutely hate. But maybe this is a healthier weight for me? Or maybe I’m just emotionally eating to handle all the feelings I currently have about shaking up my routine and falling in love with my best friend who is now suddenly gone continuing his travels around the world?

You can spend hours preparing yourself for something, but it’s true you just don’t know how you’re really going to feel until it happens.

The one thing I do know is that I am navigating my way to a new balance… a new routine where I have vowed to put myself first more. Before Peru I was in a flow of work, work, work… for everyone else. I realize now I wasn’t putting enough energy into my own businesses and my own dreams. So I have carved out time in my schedule to do this going forward. I told my limiting beliefs to kindly Fuck Off and I’ve gotten clear on what I really want.

I was reminded that I am the only one who can make ME happy. And I’m all about it. I seriously freaking love it. I love myself so much. I know what I’m doing, where I want to go and how to take care of myself. And I’m excited about what I’m currently creating… planting some incredible new seeds in this freshly tilled soil.

But I am still a human being and I fucking miss my best friend like crazy.

I want to keep co-creating with him, I want to love him, feel him. I wish he was here right now. Since we parted ways that hasn’t gone away. And it’s okay. I feel him in everything I do and it’s beautiful. He has taught me so much and helped shift my perspective on life. What greater gift can a person give?

It’s natural for humans to want to come together and co-create. When we find those special relationships that are seemless and easy… when the dance between two people is so beautiful… it makes us want to hang on even more. And it’s okay. Because the only way I know how to love is with my whole heart… and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

So I let him go, I let him be free, to spread his wings… to explore, to expand, and to live as fully and authentically as he possibly can. Because I do love him deeply and want that for him. To live completely out of control. I know we will come back together if we are supposed to.

The difference now is that I have some new tools in my pocket to help me handle the emotions that arise daily.

I love myself more, I know how to take care of myself, and I have a new level of confidence in myself to achieve the things I want for my future. Knowing that is gold.

So I dance, I laugh, I cry, I remember. I scream into my pillow when I feel angry. I use all the tools of emotional release I possibly can to work with my emotional body. Because I’m tired of running away from it. I’m tired of numbing it. I FEEL. And I am grateful to feel on such a deep level. I am ALIVE! And what I really want is to continually peel back layers so that true love and creativity can flow through me from my core.

So, going forward my life is all about release and creation. Every. Single. Day.

My divine masculine and feminine energy are co-creating together within my magnificent being.

I blaze forward on this path. With an open heart I will stay vulnerable to whatever and whoever crosses my path. I am open to the lessons, the happiness, sadness, longing, confusion, pain, and joy that lies ahead.

I let go of control.

Because living out of control is the only way to live FREE.

My journey to South America was for a magical week long training: ISTA Level One, Spiritual Sexual Shamanic Experience.

The grounding energy of the mountains in Pisac was incredible and lended to a most transformative experience on all levels – body, mind and spirit. I cannot speak highly enough of ISTA (International School of Temple Arts) – I will cherish and use daily the tools I learned to greater expand love, freedom and power in my being and I am so grateful for the wonderful facilitators who helped me release tons of stored guilt, shame and fear in my being… because there is now new space for more love, new experiences, and a new perspective on life.

Our sexual energy is our life force energy, it is our creativity. When we learn how to work with this, we are able to step fully into our personal power, allow creativity to flow, and truly manifest the life we want.

Here is the video Brent & I compiled of our experience in Pisac, Peru at ISTA: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gS0265i6bsI&t=23s

 

Love,
Loren

More info about ISTA trainings here: www.schooloftemplearts.org

Follow Brent on his travels by subscribing to his blog! www.brenthruska.com/blog

And make sure to subscribe to my blog for all the updates on my integration, more stories and vlogs coming soon… xo

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